Taylor and I take turns with songs. I play 3 songs then she gets 3 and that is how our play list that plays all day is created. When she lays down for her nap I remove her songs and just play mine.
When she got up from her nap today [...]
Taylor and I take turns with songs. I play 3 songs then she gets 3 and that is how our play list that plays all day is created. When she lays down for her nap I remove her songs and just play mine.
When she got up from her nap today [...]
That place called me yesterday and asked if I was still interested in the job. I told them yes, very interested. I have a second interview January 4th. I have to wait for the president of the company to get back from vacation.
Thanks to EVERYONE for all the good lucks! [...]
Tomorrow I will find out if I get a second interview at the best job ever for me. EVER. I’m so frickin’ nervous. I know I did really well at the interview and I have everything they’re looking for. But I’m not getting my hopes up too high.
I’ve been offered [...]
One of my goals this year was to forgive people and not be mad anymore. The year is almost over and I can honestly say I’ve done pretty well. I’m not sure why it was easier than it has been before. I’m not complaining but I do wish I could [...]
My hair over the past seven years.
14 years
16 years at it’s most natural. I miss it.
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Taking care of your hands & nails- Tashina from logicalharmoney.net wrote an excellent post on how to care for your hands and nails. She mentions an at-home exfoliant and tips to make your natural nails look awesome.
[...]There are a lot of emotions that come with preparing to be independent. For the most part I am frightened. The only bills I’ve ever had are cell phones (verizon & t-mobile data plan) and a credit card. The chances of me handling money well are the same as your [...]
When I was 6 years old I sat at the table to eat breakfast. If my memory is correct my mom made waffles that morning. So I was eating my waffles like a perfect child and my little sister, Dannielle, told me she was going to kill me by stabbing [...]
Looking for my own apartment is one of the most exciting things I’ve ever done.
Preparing to not be dependent on other people is a mixture of fear and extreme giddiness.
[...]Today was my second interview with a marketing company. They were going to show me exactly what they do then offer me the job.
At 7:45 I dropped Taylor off with Jacob’s Dad. “Where you goin, Mommy?” “I’m going to a job interview.” “So you go to work in the daytime [...]
Searching for a pre-school almost seems fake. I’m visiting places Taylor will spend a lot of time at, talking with people who will basically be helping me raise my daughter, and watching children play who might become Taylor’s best friend.
After my first attempt working days hours I thought I would [...]
Last week I visited a couple daycares. I decided to visit without calling first; I wanted to see them when they weren’t expecting a parent. I enjoyed the first two, but not the third. It was a Christian Academy. Let my preface by saying I don’t have a problem with [...]
I have a half-brother. His name is Sean and he’s a couple years older than me. A few months ago I started trying to find him.
I’m not sure why I so badly want to find him. Part of me thinks he looks for me and my sister but he can’t [...]
A personal goal of mine is to help children who have been molested and their parents in any way I can. So many people are hush hush when it comes to molestation and I can’t understand why. It happens everyday in places you would never think and with people you [...]
About two months ago a family moved in below us. Right around Taylor’s nap time I heard a radio blaring and my windows were rattling. “WHAT THE FUCK!”, I asked myself. I peeked out my blinds to see where the noise was coming from. When I realized it was coming [...]
I’ve never got “professional” pictures of Taylor. I’ve never wanted to. When she was a newborn I didn’t feel the need for them. I liked the pictures we took. Us, at home. I was all emo about it. As she got older I still didn’t want them because tacky backdrops [...]
Michael Devlin pleads guilty. Sentenced to life in prison. - Devlin pleaded guilty today. Shawn Hornbeck and Ben Ownby didn’t even have to testify. If only all cases like this would go so easily.
[...]The apartment we’re more than likely going to move to has two bathrooms. They are both full bathrooms and have LARGE countertops. Not small and pointless like this. And, they are both big enough you can actually move around in without having a panic attack from tininess. The laundry [...]
In less than two months Taylor will turn three. Three. THREE.
As much as she is aggravating she’s more incredible. There is no feeling like the one I get when she gets excited to show me something. Nothing makes her happier than when I’ll sit and watch her do whatever she [...]
One huge downside to not getting a house is losing all that potential extra room. Apartments and extra room don’t go together on what we can afford.
I found a couple townhouses with basements that I would really love to look at. One even has a garage. Jacob has no interest [...]
How I feel is always an extreme. Happy medium does not know me nor do I know it. I’m either extremely depressed to the point I won’t even wash my face at the end of the day because I feel like it’s pointless to do anything for myself or I’m [...]
A lot has happened since my last post about my uncertainness with my relationship with Jacob.
We both agreed it would be best if I lived on my own and experienced new trials and tribulations. I told him my doubts about us; how I think we’re both just settling. Then I [...]
Jacob got jealous for the first time ever in our relationship. Well, at least the first time he admitted to it.
I haven’t wanted him as bad as I do right now in a long time. The past two days we’ve done it like we did when we first got together.
[...]During nap time Taylor and I were laying in bed and talking about all the animals at the zoo. It’s something we do weekly before her naps. She likes to stall so I have to lay with her until she falls asleep.
Today right before her eyes started getting heavy she [...]
Sometimes I wonder how I learn anything.
Yesterday I left two SD Cards on top of my printer. I glanced at them before leaving my computer and thought to myself to put them away but then told myself I would do it in a little bit. I wake up this morning [...]
The first night I hung out with Jacob at his house he kissed me. It was pretty good but I don’t think I totally enjoyed it because a friend of mine liked him and that’s all I could think about. We didn’t kiss again for what seemed like five months [...]
Yesterday while cooking lunch Taylor rubbed Johnson’s bedtime lotion all over her face and in her hair. You would think after 2 1/2 years I would remember to put that kind of shit away, right? Obviously not.
When I was in the kitchen she ran to her room and I only [...]
A few weeks ago I decided to put Taylor in Montessori School. A few weeks passed and I decided not to because she doesn’t need to be with someone else that much yet. That decision started my search for playgroups. While I don’t want Taylor with other adults I do [...]
Yesterday -
For breakfast I made Taylor a bowl of Apple Jacks and had her eat them next to my bed on the side table so I could lay down a little bit longer. I’m not even sure why I was so tired. I was in bed by 1 and didn’t [...]
Sunday Jacob bought a 2001 Chevy Malibu. It’s cute, runs well, has good safety ratings, we can use the 5 point safety system, the air is cold, cruise control works, and it already has a CD player. Not too bad for the price Jacob paid. It’s not the greatest car, [...]
About a half hour ago I found some Big Red gum and ate it. Not even 15 minutes past and I couldn’t take how hot it was. Maybe it’s just me but I don’t recall Big Red gum being so freaking hot. I spit it out quite awhile ago and [...]
NZ parents may lose battle to keep baby ‘4real’ - First, the title is wrong. They are talking about the child’s name, not the child. Second, for real? I wish his name for for fake.
[...]1. Tonight I said something I never thought I would. “Do not play ball in the house. (1 minute pause) Especially when you don’t know how to hit lightly!” The words slid out of my mouth like a pro.
2. You know your house in ran by young spawn when the [...]
The thought of Taylor having a step-mom literally makes me feel ill. Some female other than me raising her, giving her advice, trying to teach her life-lessons, and a female who isn’t me that Taylor would look up to. It makes me want to vomit. Taylor might not feel as [...]
Army’s ‘Debt of Service’ Leaves Vets Perplexed - And I would think so. Soldiers are being billed for broken and missing government items. Next they’ll be paying bills for all the shits they took.
[...]Over the weekend Jacob’s sister, Sam, her husband Charlie, and their son Caeden visited. Friday night while eating dinner Charlie was giving Caeden sips of water from a cup and he kept dropping it down his shirt. Jacob said, “Just keep at it. That is how Stephanie got Taylor to [...]
A normal day will result in me pooping three or more times. Yes, I’m serious. It never takes me long to do my business. Most people don’t even believe I poo when I say I did. There are a few occurrences that it does take me some time though. And [...]
Last night while on the phone with a friend Taylor woke up. It was 11 something when I glanced at a clock. She had peed her bed and had to poop. Now I try to always wait until Taylor goes to sleep to talk because if I don’t I won’t [...]
Sometimes Taylor wants her dolls or stuffed animals to sleep with her. When she wants her animals her cats sleep at the top of her pillow, the dogs sleep at her feet, and the rest sleep against the wall. When she wants her dolls they get a kiss and hug [...]
Children See, Children Do - Very powerful video. It made me cry.
[...]Taylor has a new favorite activity.
She sticks her little bony ass in my face and farts. Then she laughs. And she doesn’t just laugh, she throws her head back, slaps her knee, and squeals when she is finished.
My days are way better than yours. Honestly.
[...]Fatshionista - Culture Jamming - A girl added her own advice to feeling good about yourself on Special K advertisements. Excellent idea.
[...]Last week I house sat my parent’s house while they went on vacation. They went to Louisiana to visit their friends. They had a great time, as usual, and I had a great time having their house to myself. Ok, almost myself. Dannielle was there at night and Kristin was [...]
I love reading blogs/journals of people losing weight. I especially love reading those of people who have gained in the same manner I have. So I’ll start with the story of gaining weight.
Exactly one month after Taylor Jacob and I went to his friend Dallas’ for a New Years Eve [...]
I’m not sure if every one knows but I absolutely love cleaning poop out of my tub. It’s really the highlight of my day week month year. I also love steam cleaning my carpet days in a row because Taylor finds it amusing to say, “Oh, look, Mommy! I found [...]
